Wow... struggling so long and desperately with the space around money, unable to understand why financial flows hadn't come to me at all for the last three years... So much work, tears, and gray hair on this topic... Only to wake up this morning and realize that money has seemingly ceased to exist for me. Believe me, describing a new state I've never experienced before is difficult, but I'll try. For I clearly feel that this is the answer to the financial codes of the new era, and that it's important for awakened souls, and eventually for absolutely everyone, to understand this at this stage, so that money can flow to you. Otherwise, it just doesn't work. The corresponding codes from various specialists, information sources—books, YouTube videos, and so on—have been downloaded to me for a long time. But it's one thing to hear something, another to accept it, and quite another to recognize it, process it, and reveal it within yourself, removing blocks to the flow of energy and learning this lesson. So, for the last three years (those who follow my social media will understand what I mean), I've been living one main lesson: how to achieve a good financial income by following the path of your Soul, doing what you love, what you were truly born for, what your purpose is. I'm digging into different aspects of myself and others, studying, and the Universe is "pulling" me through these lessons reliably.
The key points that have been gradually unfolding for me over this period, which today seem to have come together as a conscious puzzle within me, have at least gone away. At least the chronic tension I felt about "not having enough money" has gone away =):
1. Money isn't an end in itself, it's a tool. The way I feel, when you set a specific amount in your account as an end in itself, it all seems to lose its meaning... After all, what do you need it for? To see a specific amount in your account. In my case (and in most cases), this is: firstly, to gain the illusion of security from this amount. So, some childish part of you believes that money is what will give you a sense of security. But there's just one problem. Remember those times (let's be honest) when you received large sums of money and had it in your account. Did that underlying feeling of "insecurity" really disappear in those moments? I don't think so, either... Because at those moments, thoughts immediately creep in that the money could disappear somewhere, that it could be stolen, that the card could be blocked, or that you "need to put some aside" because at the end of the month there won't be enough money to pay the rent. You put some aside, and then something crazy happens, and you have to pull out a few bills or some electronic sum from that set-aside money to cover other needs. And voila! The end of the month arrives, and just as you feared, there's no money to pay the rent! There's a persistent feeling that things could have been completely different if I hadn't been thinking, "I could die under a bridge tomorrow because my money will run out and I'm so afraid of that." This is about a basic sense of SECURITY! Money, a partner, or anything else external won't cover it. You need to address this issue, work through it with a specialist, and heal it. The root is that you haven't been given this sense of self-confidence and security since childhood. You've simply never physically felt safe at all! Through healing, it's possible and important to download these codes and states into yourself and integrate them, if you weren't given them since childhood. Otherwise, you won't move forward.
The next example: money is consciously (but most likely unconsciously) viewed as a potential way to dominate people, to demonstrate one's importance and wealth. Often, this is rooted in low self-esteem, repeated childhood experiences when you were humiliated, devalued, and hurt. Your humanity, self-love, self-confidence, and inner strength were shattered. You developed a profound sense of pain and hatred for people... and all people, in fact! A few people were hurt, but you've come to hate everyone around you. And your aggression toward people, your thirst for revenge, and your hatred mask the catastrophic pain within you. And you feel that if you give in, if you release this aggression and tension toward people, then what and why live at all? But this story isn't about people, it's about you. And about your inner pain, which from time to time erupts and makes itself known. But of course, this is such a "dark" side that it's impossible to see it in oneself and admit it. This often applies to sociopathic lovers of "brand names," cool cars, and heavy luxury goods, who are driven by hatred for these benefits, not love.
So the mechanism emerges: if it hurts, you have to cover it up with aggression because "I'm strong" and I won't be broken. A warrior, exhausted from fighting. There's really no one left to fight, because they had to fight in childhood. But the ingrained behavioral pattern of "if you feel pain, fight and destroy everything around you" makes itself felt. So, it's precisely in this situation that money (for this is what the modern world is programmed for, although these programs are now crumbling and changing) becomes like a tool of revenge: "I'll earn so much, buy myself the coolest car and suit, and go back to my village and show off how awesome I am and prove to those who bullied me at school what a piece of crap they are" (these aren't just words; I sincerely thought this for half my life).
And what's interesting... I understood this, but I sincerely believed that I could actually make good money with this "engine." And I didn't want to give up this way of life and thinking at all... But! My main question was, "Where are my millions?" (because I know I have the potential to be a millionaire, and in fact, I came into this world to make money easily... but something just isn't working... it hasn't worked out yet).
2. A crucial point: if you earn 3,000 dollars a month, but want to reach the millions... WOW! Hang in there! The Universe takes everything literally... I'm not joking (although I've received this information, but I'm like, "Who cares, I'll survive and cope with it all, I'll get through it!" I can, but at 34, I already have a lot of gray hair, and a good portion of it has fallen out from stress). You see, money is a mirror of our state, our energy level, and how fulfilled it is. Money reflects our level of knowledge, skills, adaptability to modern life, self-love, and much more... It's not just pieces of paper that randomly arrive to a specific person. Warning! I'm not talking about situations where people get quick money/popularity/success through contracts with low and demonic energies. Which, for example, is very common in the world of show business. No! From the very beginning of the article, I clarified that I'm talking about money through the energies of Light, Love, Freedom, and Justice! So, I need to completely reimagine myself, to become a new, open, and improved version of myself, one where I have enough energy to create those millions every month with joy, comfort, and harmony with other important areas of my life—family, health, relaxation, hobbies, and entertainment. You understand how much energy this requires! And it's important! Not "borrowed" energy from lower forces, for which you then pay with your soul—no! It's important to open up your own sincere flow of abundance! How? There's only one way out! Become so energetic that you can handle it. How? I've written a lot about this.
Essentially, all my healing work with myself and others is aimed precisely at these two processes: 1. To restore a person's full connection with their Soul, in other words, to fully return the Soul to the body. Some call this "Awakening"—it's when you are completely aware, always within yourself, you feel and know your purpose, why you are on Earth in this body, your intuition develops tremendously, and you measure absolutely every action in your life against your inner barometer of "is this mine or not mine?" and you never betray yourself! But these are the energies of the Soul, the highest energies. From them you can endlessly draw inspiration, joy, ideas... But to embody these ideas, you need your earthly part—the energy flows of the Family/Earth/pure and healthy sexual energy. What happens in such a situation when you open up these flows within yourself? You develop qualities such as self-confidence and inner strength, physical readiness, and the ability to create and implement projects out of love, passion, and joy without fear, doubt, or guilt. You easily create and release products/goods/services into the world, providing quality products to people and readily accepting payment for them without unnecessary doubts or limitations in your head. And all of this can be scaled without boundaries or limits, depending on your energy level, so you can "master" it and not lose your nerve under the strain (roughly speaking). This is how the energies of a person who creates $3,000 a month differ from those of a person who creates $100,000. It's also important to understand that each level of the financial game has its own rules, and you can't use the same engine that created three to create a hundred. The rules of the game are completely different. And when you ask the Universe for growth, it begins to guide you through all these lessons, cleansings, and transformations so you reach the level you desire. But each such "exit to a new level" is naturally accompanied by a "change of scenery"—the old life crumbles, a unique process of resetting and liberating oneself from false motivations, values, and views of life as you previously saw it. As it happened in my case, I was delving deeper and deeper into myself, understanding myself, and healing a huge number of psychological traumas. And each time the "husk" of another childhood trauma was peeled away from my psyche, the more my true, living energy—"who I really am"—was revealed. From this state, I begin to see the world, people, events, and situations completely differently.
And do you know what happened yesterday? A close friend of mine, who is also into energy, interested in the structure of the world, and very sensitive, told me two important codes: 1. You can't speak to the Universe metaphorically; it perceives everything literally. In other words, when you say you want to open your consciousness, be careful not to suffer a head injury that blows your skull off and leaves you with a traumatic brain injury. This example is greatly exaggerated, specifically to help the reader remember it. 2. Think about what you're asking for – if you're asking for a completely different life, be prepared for your old life to begin to completely disintegrate and be erased – including old sources of income, your former environment, and so on. It's important to be prepared for this and to go through all these transformations. Hearing this, I realized that for the past few months, I've been constantly asking for cleansing and reaching a new level... And, in fact, that's what's been happening... Non-stop, constantly, without periods of stabilization.
To say I'm tired of all these transformations is an understatement. And what I consciously told myself and the world yesterday... I'm fed up with transformations! I want a stable life, a business, an income of at least $10,000 a month, and to always have the opportunity to do what I want and love, to promote myself and show my healing gift and talent to the world, to travel unlimitedly with my loved one whenever and wherever we want, to have high-quality organic food on the table every day, and to have unlimited access to restaurants (I love it and I love exploring new places when someone cooks for me).
And at this point, I've reached the level I've reached. I want to stabilize and materialize my energy now, at the level I've built over the years. Because I look at many people—they don't have anywhere near this level of energy, but their income is many times higher. Yes, it's a different story there, and I don't know what's behind it or what drives them. But overall, I sincerely understand and feel that I already deserve a much higher income (by the way, there's another section here... when I wrote the last five lines, I see a dark cloud around me, an unpleasant feeling in my lower abdomen, and my jaw is clenching... so let's go through this section together... I'm sure it will resonate with those reading it.
Resistance to money, rejection of it, denial, a contemptuous attitude towards money. Not understanding what to do with it and where to direct it. Even some aggression towards money, "I've done so much to get you, but you still don't come"... Childhood trauma and resentment, which for some reason is directed at the area of money (in fact, in childhood it was directed at people around me, but in adulthood the psyche transferred it to money). This is a lack of attention and love, most likely from parents. And a completely stupid behavior pattern: "You don't give me enough love and attention, so I'll yell even more, I'll make a scene and be even more indignant, oh you..." "You don't even hear me, so I'll start making a scene and even harming myself! Thoughts of self-destruction, even suicide... even if all this doesn't work, I'll harm myself so that you won't dare do it again!!! Then you'll definitely notice that I'm gone."...
Honestly, I'm in shock now... I didn't even remember this and I've forgotten it... But! I remember moments in childhood when, due to a lack of understanding of my upbringing methods, when they yelled at me or something like that, didn't allow me to do something, I'd run to my room... damn... I'd close the door and cry... I had two toys – a white teddy bear and a monkey. I'd hug them, cry, and tell them that only they understand me and only they are my true friends, and KEYLY, I'd have a thought that if I weren't alive, then my parents would definitely notice me, my needs, and what they were missing! That's exactly what I thought then... Holy shit!!! Pain, on top of which hatred and the desire for revenge later arose. Incidentally, when I was healing the substance issue in my life, one of the most important moments and motives for substance use in my life, on a completely subconscious and completely unconscious level, do you know what happened? Getting revenge on my mother through self-destruction... Once I destroy myself, then she will definitely feel bad! Again, these processes are completely unconscious.
I ask my Higher Self how this relates to money. Answer: For me, money is life. Because it's food, water, the ability to pay rent, spend quality time with loved ones, travel, and so on... Essentially, not having enough money for all of this is a continuation of my self-destructive program. I've brought myself to the point where I feel so hurt and miserable that the whole world (and deep down, my mom and dad) look at me and see how bad I feel, how I'm suffering, and it's all your fault! I'm currently replaying in my head many moments when I unconsciously treated my parents with extreme toxicity, seeking revenge and hurting them... Essentially, I've been doing this for most of my life, very subtly and unconsciously. Yes, this is my attempt at separation, to reclaim myself, and to build my life the way I want.
And I am building it! BUT! These are two completely different states: 1. I've spent my entire life fighting imaginary enemies in the form of my parents, accusing them of something and wanting revenge, thereby separating myself from them and not repeating their scenarios... Let this now, through the Primordial Creator of all that exists, very gently, smoothly, and carefully heal within me, down to the root cause... And you know what the root cause is – separation from my essence, my roots, a denial of my origins and roots somewhere very deep. The second option is to completely overcome this trauma and no longer "fight" by denying myself and subconsciously exhausting myself, creating a mess in my life just to get revenge. It's now clear to me that my parents are essentially immature children, and their methods of life are childish. My revenge is the resentment of a CHILD, and if I continue like this, it will also be a continuation of living from a childish perspective. In general, the theme of resentment and the idea that "the world is unfair" is a completely childish story. The other day, I was shown my ideal Soul Path, and if I'd followed it, my life would have been much brighter, and I'd probably already have my millions... Although that's not a given=) But that's how it seemed to me. So, you know what that scenario was... I was supposed to become a doctor according to the "ideal" Soul Path. But I consciously went into law out of trauma... you know what? Somewhere, I subtly sensed that the world was unfair, and I was drawn to the field of law, justice, to compensate for this inner feeling of pain, oppression, and injustice. But Truth always prevails... Throughout my years at the Academy, I studied medical law, and even my PhD dissertation was on the topic of medical law (at the defense, the Council members even wanted to annul my dissertation because it was more on "healthcare organization" than "administrative law"). I'm glad that after graduating from law school, I still went on to pursue a second and third degree—a Bachelor's in Biology and a Master's in Philosophy, both in Human Health. Now I see that this at least somehow straightened out my life's path and gave me hope for a "bright future." What I see now... If I had pursued the path of "law," I might not be alive today.
And now the key point about "listen only to yourself and absolutely mustn't betray yourself"... When I decided to leave law for health and helping people through massage/healing, I heard so much nonsense from those around me. Like, "Why did I have to study at the academy for five years, defend my dissertation, just to get into massage?"... You know what I'm so overwhelmed with joy and happiness right now? Because they were all sent to hell. Just like when the war started in Ukraine and they started whispering garbage to me about returning there and "serving my country." What did I do? And for the second time in my life, I sent all my "advisors" packing, even when it came to my family, and flew off to Asia to build my life... And oh my god! Now I realize it! My power! The power of MY DECISIONS about MY LIFE that are unpleasant to others! And then I acted in accordance with the voice of my SOUL AND HEART! And that's precisely why it led me to the best versions of my reality! Yes, not ideal, but super comfortable in joy and health... I live in my beloved country at home (I never felt Ukraine as home and didn't understand how everything worked there) with the person I love in my beloved home, and I love everything around me beyond measure!!! Oh my god! It's as if I've never seen or felt this before!
I live a beautiful life, and it was built on my choices, following the voice of my Soul, despite any blah blah blah from those around me, whoever they may be! This is how being a builder of your life differs from being a victim of circumstances! Incidentally, it shows me that these two moments were actually the second and third... Moment number one was the choice to get married when I was 18... Despite everyone and everything, no matter what anyone said. I married a very strong woman, who in many ways made me who I am today. Life with her wasn't easy at all, but precisely because "homeboy Leshenka—a repressed vegetable since childhood" left home and chose himself and the way I wanted (as scary as it was), I won enormously!!! Honestly, I now feel incredible joy for myself, self-respect, and an understanding of how much I've done for my happiness in the here and now. I thank and accept myself for the beautiful path I've built thanks to my choices and decisions!
Do you think I wrote all this for nothing? No! It's all about ACCEPTANCE! Remember how that block in my lower abdomen began? With the theme of rejecting and denying money! Then the chain began: money is life, because with it I buy the life I want... And you know what I'm really feeling right now in my lower abdomen... guilt and self-criticism for my choices. In fact, I've had this feeling my whole life. People around me want something from me and expect something from me. I make completely revolutionary and unconventional decisions about MY LIFE, but they freak out the people around me, because they think they have some kind of right over me. I decide something about MY LIFE, and people around me stink with their opinions. Yes, these are my tests of loyalty to my heart and soul, choosing myself no matter what... Honestly, I've lived with this insane guilt (and self-punishment follows guilt) my whole life, and I need to get it out of my system now... I'll go massage my stomach and meditate; I need to break the patterns of guilt and shame for who I really am and for my choices and desires... Once I get it out of my system, I'll get back to writing the article. Love you!
I'm back! Firstly, not accepting your past choices prevents you from letting go of these situations and, as it were, releasing them from yourself. For example, I love to lash out at my ex-wife, ex-boyfriend, parents, country, and so on. But somewhere deep down, it's not about them, but about my choices about these people, events, situations... The rejection of myself, the rejection even of my Soul's choice to be born in this country and to these parents... But if I hadn't been born there and in these circumstances, my life wouldn't have been so uniquely beautiful and there wouldn't have been this unique Path! A relaxed acceptance of everything within myself, my choices and decisions, my past actions, and the AWARENESS that in that moment, I was doing the best that I could FOR MYSELF!
Yes! This is super important! I made these choices for myself! Choosing the best I could! After all, I live my life FOR MYSELF! Not to satisfy the expectations and hopes of my parents or anyone else! AND NOW THE MOST IMPORTANT THING! Based on the above, I joyfully, completely, consciously, and forever in this body, take responsibility for my life from anyone! I deprive anyone of the right to influence my choices and decisions, and I take every piece of my Soul and my energy from anyone! Even from my parents, and especially from them! Now I understand when psychologists say that until you grow up and take responsibility for your life from your parents, nothing will work out!
Attention! Not only is this bad, but it is absolutely impossible not to choose what YOU FEEL IN YOUR SOUL just to please someone or meet their expectations! Most people are terribly traumatized; they don't know how to live this life! Our parents are mostly unconscious children in adult bodies who haven't learned to take responsibility for themselves and their lives. They lack the Life codes we need to build the life of our dreams, which is why many strong people engage in self-reflection, transformation, and self-discovery! And, in essence, this is the true and highest responsibility for oneself and one's life! Yes, I wasn't given what I want and what's important to me! So, I'll give it to myself—I'll learn how this life works, I'll understand, I'll take responsibility for my reality, not from a position of childish criticism of what exists and some expectations from the Universe!
No! THIS IS RESPONSIBILITY FOR ONE'S LIFE! Yes, right now I'm broke, but I'm not running from it; I'm acknowledging the situation! How can I change this and make my life better right now? What non-trivial solutions does this space require of me to resolve and improve this? Why don't I make these decisions? Because I'm afraid of offending someone or making those around me bitter? It's like a gas chamber, and you're slowly killing yourself in it! And the worst thing is, your parents may not even be alive anymore, but inside you, their images are preserved, and WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING IT, you check every desire, action, and project against the inner feeling of "what will Mom/Dad think of this?"
Some give up at the thought stage, without undertaking bold experiments or anything meaningful! Money doesn't come from the mundane! Money comes from bold, extraordinary decisions! The Universe loves the bold and progressive!
Some (like me) do things and then become consumed by endless guilt—did I do it right, will people (really, my parents) like it, and blah blah blah. This whole stream of thoughts simply consumes you from the inside, leaving no energy left for further development of projects and creativity. Only by completely unleashing guilt and shame and choosing to love only yourself, your opinions, your choices, and your decisions will you become a winner. This doesn't mean ignoring the advice of friends, experts, and so on! It means that when you listen to any advice, you check it against your heart: "Does this concern me and resonate with me, or is this more blah blah blah that will only lead me astray and lead to more problems?"
When you blame someone or something from the past, you can't just let it go and forget. But first and foremost, you blame yourself for making those choices, and you can't forgive yourself, not them. Only complete and total acceptance of yourself and all your choices and actions from the past will restore your wholeness, will restore your LIFE!
So, that's the main thing I realized this morning, when "money seemed to cease to exist for me"... All this time, I didn't want money, but compensation for my pain and trauma through money! That's why it wasn't coming! But in reality, I don't want money, but a range of material goods (food, travel, an apartment, and so on! And that's how important it is to turn to the Universe!). I've long had this thought in my meditations: "Don't talk to us about money, tell us what you really want, and it will be given to you!" But back then, I didn't understand what I was talking about... now I'm starting to get a taste of it! To be continued!
