Many people talk about an open heart, but few know anything really important and deep about it. For me, it is primarily about honesty and depth. With myself first. What is important and valuable to me, what is true for me and what is false – even if the people around me have a different opinion. What gives me a sincere feeling of inner peace, harmony and happiness, and does not constantly “knock” me out of myself, pushing me to live not my life scenarios, which are provided for by the Path of my Soul, but what other people want from me (who involve me in their games, so important for them and their survival, but these are not my games at all!)
And even when I had a two-year period of “hunger”, need and search for opportunities to earn financial resources from love, following the Path of the Soul, even then I said “no” to my other “part-time jobs” and projects, in which I betrayed myself and lost energetically and emotionally much more than I earned, serving not my own, rather dark energies.
It was unclear what to do, but the answers kept coming to me: “relax”, “trust”… How the hell can you relax when you have to pay your rent tomorrow, and you just don’t have the money? But, like everyone reading this, I’m sure that at least at the last minute, the money did come? Right? It always does! Because the Universe’s plan is not to create a situation of lack of money for us, but to show: “Look! You’re either going in the wrong direction, or you’re going there, but using the wrong methods (for example, in my case of the past two years:
a) I wasn’t ready to let go of the old life, which no longer worked at all and only dragged me down to exhaustion and self-destruction;
b) I was very slow and didn’t take responsibility for creating new projects in the field of healing (and this is exactly why I came into this body and this is exactly what the Universe expected from me). And yes, I understand that, in essence, I was created for multi-channel income from different sources, but under one most important condition – by doing this I do not betray myself, my conscience, my Soul, my energies. You will say – what does the heart have to do with the topic of money, which I voiced above? Yes, because for many, the topic of money, due to traumas and distortions embedded in the consciousness since childhood, is identified or strongly borders on the topic of love and cordiality. Like "if he doesn't buy me anything, then he doesn't love me" ...
In my case, the "perversion" of my psyche was even more sophisticatedly twisted: if money is the language of love, then when clients come and give me money, they love me (all this happened unconsciously). If I am loved, then I am ready to do everything for this – usually this developed into saving those who came to me and "doing the maximum for them", although it was not always necessary to do this and it was important to simply conduct a healing flow unemotionally. More severe manifestations of this block looked like this - clients do not come at all (here the Universe stopped this flow so that I could honestly figure out the motivation for why I need these clients at all – either to follow the true goal of "helping people" or to compensate for my injuries at the expense of people – this no longer worked). And until the Universe "educated" me through the topic of money to the state of gray hair (and all I had to HONESTLY WITH MYSELF "surrender" and figure out - what is this for me?) Well, material goods do not come to false injuries, beliefs and distortions! Just not! Do you know why?
Because money is a resource, it is a mirror of your energy state. Money itself is a plus, wealth, profit... Call it what you want, but it is definitely the energy of presence, not absence. And when we want to get the energy of a plus by the methods of a minus, lack, need, deficit... it just doesn't work! And that's normal! How can you get enough by starving yourself! But very often, something else is hidden under a lack of material resources. I caught this very clearly yesterday morning - when the day before yesterday evening I was doing another powerful cleansing of my energy and opening myself up deeper, meditating through drawing... I created several energy paintings, which I hung on the walls and they began to work, raising the old traumatic material of my psyche and healing it.
So I woke up in a state of "why don't I have any clients today, aaaa at least one", panic, hysteria... such a strange state... And at this stage of development I caught it instantly, I say - calm down, calm down and go to correction. Now we will sort it out with you. And imagine my surprise that this state of mine was not about clients and money at all. Yes, I suspected it, I made many videos on YouTube on these topics, but never before so clearly, obviously and honestly with myself I felt it. It was I who felt the lack of my energy! I was just tired and angry with myself (subconsciously), because I did not give myself a rest a couple of days ago. Plus there was a lot of communication and social contacts in the last few days, and this terribly drains me. This is the kind of person I am - alone - I fill up, with people I drain energy, and therefore I try to reduce any kind of social communication to a minimum and strictly to business contacts. And I began to heal myself with my hands. Do you know where I wanted to keep my hands? Yes, yes! That's it! The heart zone... All these feelings of lack were not about clients and money, but about the lack of love for myself! And the scheme here is this - first you look for methods on how to fill yourself (everyone has their own - for me - being alone, and for other people - others. For some, it's riding a bike at high speed, and for others - just getting enough sleep). So, having been with myself for literally 3-4 hours without any kind of contact (I didn't even answer anyone's text messages) - I cooked food for myself, drew more, listened to music - I was so charged! The feeling of deficit passed, the strength appeared to finish those projects that I couldn't do for a couple of weeks and here it is! The resourceful filled state returned! And this is exactly what people/clients come to... And yes, everyone just went crazy and started sending a bunch of messages, some calls and so on. There were a lot of "random people" who simply felt the energy and that I was delicious. Previously, I was led by this and having filled myself up, I would dump it on the first comer. Now I have become smarter and I see what is behind it. I filled myself up not for blah blah blah, but for new projects, creating useful things for the masses of people and yes! Receiving profit for my work. That is why yesterday I specifically stopped all random attacks from people.
And this is already the topic of boundaries, they attacked when I became full and tasty. And where were you when I was deciphyte? A lot of people do not want to take care of themselves, develop and MOST IMPORTANTLY – look for their own ways of filling! They just want to suck on when they see bright tasty energy. Before, I was a fool with no boundaries and just fell for it, allowing random passers-by to suck me out, and for free (here is the topic of personal value, self-esteem and how much my time and attention are worth, but that's another question). By the way, how did the healing of the topic of self-respect and boundaries happen - in July I worked on these topics in myself and worked with a large number of clients on these topics. Working with people was mainly devoted to these issues, as well as issues of the health of the physical body and cutting off energy vampires at different levels.
So, if you want money – be honest with yourself about what this money is for you and what it really is for you. And this honesty with yourself will lead to a huge breakthrough and obtaining the desired financial results. Although here a logical question arises - why do you need this money and where will you put it, direct it, as well as the released energy. Yes, there are no more vampires, the forces have come and what to do? This is already the topic of the next publications - how to realize yourself to the maximum, opening the paths to your realization and doing good to people in the most comfortable mode for yourself, getting the maximum result for yourself, including financial. But these issues are most effectively resolved during personal online consultations, because each person is a separate and unique Universe and everyone has their own Path.
